Lonelygirl15

[covedweller]

URGENT: For My Helper (Transcript)


i think it might be time that I thought things over.
i might have too much order in my life, to the point
I can’t make sense of it!

I feel like i am just waiting.
Waiting around for all of the things I want to happen.
Things i need to happen.

Waiting for something…
ANYTHING!
I wait, i wait, I wait.

It’s like I am waiting for you to just tell me what i should be doing.
Waiting for Mom and Dad to make sense of the order for me,
To help me see the meaning in it all.

Even though I feel invisible lately.
[in every facet of my life, actually]

I have nightmares that none of you even care anymore.
And i can’t help but let it get to me.

Am I cut off?
i’ve just been sitting still.
[it feels weird]

in light of that…
I am going to figure out what conclusions I have come to.

i don’t have access to all the answers. It feels like I’ve only had access
to a lot of questions.
I am too confused to try to figure it out on my own.

Maybe once we sit down, look at it all, and talk about it…
Maybe then we will be able to make sense of it!

I think that sounds like a good idea, don’t you?

So can I please come home now?
Pretty please?

I know you’ve all been busy.
I haven’t heard from you in ages.
And I haven’t been able to get ahold of any of you either.

So I am going to use the calling card you gave me for
situations like this.
And I hope that you can make the arrangements for me.

Please remember:
I wouldn’t ask if i had any other way to get home!
I am counting on your help here.

i’ve just been dealing with so much that I can’t handle it all anymore.
I really fear that I have been losing my mind for a while now.

None of us want that. Right?

In my heart,
I know that I am making the right choice in regards to my difficult decision.

With that in mind:
I anticipate that i will only be here another day, maybe?

i will have a few goodbyes, which are important since i should try to leave
on a pleasant note.
i can handle that, I am sure.

Before the sun rises today, I will gather all that i can.
There’s a lot to pack. i will leave with more than I came
here with.
I might have a few souvenirs to grab as well.

i cannot carry much, so I’d prefer to courier the bulk of it.
Once you receive this message, can you immediately send
a courier over to retrieve it all?

Once the plan is in motion, I’ll use the calling card.
I just need to overcome a few restrictions I’m dealing with.
But they shouldn’t be a problem.

Hopefully I will see you soon!

XOXO,
T




Major thanks to Jengels for typing this out!

[Jengels2002]

I asked Apaphid if the i's in the Tachyon vids mean anything, like morse code. Here is the answer...

There could be. Maybe morse code? Or maybe it's context?

We are trying to sort it out on our end, but figured you all can provide us with some answers while we try to connect the dots on our end.
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"connect the dots" That is an interesting choice of words.
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I shall get some rest when the profile tells me to.

[Six]

Okay, this might be a bit left field, but if you take each phrase that begins with "i" (phrase only), you get:

i think it might be time
i might have too much (order)
i am just waiting
i wait
i should be doing
i can't help
i've just been sitting still
i don't have access
i had
i've just been dealing
i will only be here another day
i will leave
i cannot carry much

If Tachyon were a "plant" in OpAphid's group, this would sound like a message to an outside group that she had as much info as she could get and needed to be extracted. Or, I might just need more coffee.....

[horcruxes]

thats really good idea!
i'll look into it.

[romy]

I don't know what my problem was, but after these last two posts, I watch Tachyon's vids look at her as an undercover agent in The Order, and Damn! That sure makes a bunch more sense all of a sudden.

Paradigm shift. Thanks

[katz31]

Maybe I is her public self, i is her private self, or the other way around.

[horcruxes]

these are lowercase i's in complete sentences...

[horcruxes]

uppercase i's in complete sentences.
parentheses are around things i wasn't sure should be there...

[horcruxes]

i could also do phrases for the uppercase like Six suggested earlier...

[katz31]

I think it helps to look at them together--like bold the uppercase part and leave the lowercase regular. That way you can see how they relate to each other.

[horcruxes]

[Caroline]

I think a few people may have been discussing this in the chat but I thought that perhaps 'i' could refer to another person - a 'spy' perhaps or something like that. When you look at a few of the lines such as:
i cannot carry much
i might have too much
i am just waiting
i will only be here another day

It looks like they may be refering to another person (or perhaps to Tachyon's real motives/actions). It doesnt make that much sense gramatically analysing the piece this way, but perhaps it provides a narrative of some sort.
Either: A person who is within Op's group who is removing items over a few days
OR Tachyon is removing items, unknown it Op's group

Erm... Im not sure if this sounds too coherent... but thought it was worth considering nonetheless

[Captious]

If you read the lowercase i version of the lonesome October video it looks very much like a spy.

[MaxZyrix]

Along the lines of Caroline's idea, they're saying that putting a name in replace of the 'i's makes it much more readable (I've seen they're using 'Julie' in another thread, so it comes up like 'Julie cannot carry much').
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