How Dumb Am I?
Template:Blog4 How Dumb Am I? is the one hundred fortieth video in the lonelygirl15 video series.
Transcript
Bree: So much has happened in the past year that I haven't even wanted to think about it, let alone try and figure things out. My father used to tell me that a science is something that can be explained. There's a logic in consistency, methods, steps, formulas, and results, but, history is full of things that we can't explain, or even understand, really, but we know that they happened. My dad always said that our beliefs were how we made sense of the unknown, and, our faith in something greater is what allowed us that glimpse at a much bigger picture, that we could never even understand in this lifetime. And, yeah, the last time that I saw my father he told me that a person can become so comfortable with everything that they don't know, that they just stop asking questions altogether. Even when they know, all the facts tell them that they should. He told me not to make that mistake. Since that day, I've been in such a messed up place that I haven't even been able to follow my father's advice. In fact, I must be so easy to fool. I won't even ask the most obvious question when I'm walking right into a trap. Given how elaborate the Gemma thing was, I shouldn't have been surprised that there was a backup in place. This symbol..
(Bree holds up the Watcher symbol)
.. was in that picture that Daniel decoded, so why is it here? It got me thinking and asking questions, for once, and it all fits. 'His parents disappeared at sea.' With my parents gone, what were we supposed to form some kind of orphan bond? That whole sensitive thing, always trying to get me to open up. Everything that he has ever said to me has been a lie, another attempt to control me, to, to, keep an eye on me. I've finally had enough. Whoever is watching this -- I have Jonas and he's not going anywhere until he tells me everything. Right now I'm just deciding where to begin. I really was clueless before, but that dumb girl died the day that you killed her father.
