Hiding In The Bathroom

Template:Blog3 Hiding in the Bathroom is the one hundred fourteenth video in the Lonelygirl15 video series.

Transcript

Bree: If I had any place else to go right now, I... wouldn't be here. Really I don’t even know why I’m doing this I don't have anything to say. It’s like I’m supposed to constantly reassure them that I’m dealing with things because my situation makes them uncomfortable. All that Jonas and Daniel want to talk about, and they can’t believe that I don’t. I sorta reached a breaking point earlier this week and I thought that they might give me some space but... not so much. The bathroom is pretty much the only place I can get some privacy. And that’s only if the water is running or I’m drying my hair. Otherwise they’re knocking on the door asking if I’m okay every two seconds. I’m not okay. This morning he said to me that we're both trying to hurt each other by saying things we don’t mean. Daniel really thinks he can dictate how I feel, even retroactively which is... odd. If I had the option of not seeing my father killed right in front of me. I’d have taken it. My dad, told me a lot about, The Order. And not a single thing was positive. My dad told me The Order takes these girls who show potential, at birth, and place them in controlled homes. Apparently there are thousands of them. But once they hit puberty only a fraction of the percentile develop the characteristics needed for the ceremony. My mom was higher up in The Order. My dad told me that there are different levels and people on the lower levels know very little. My dad is gone and I don’t want to have anything to do with my mom. The more it sinks in the more I realize that I don’t have anyone, and I’m completely... alone.

Notes

Bree's mother is still alive.