URGENT: For My Helper!
|URGENT: For My Helper!|
|Date Posted||October 28th, 2006|
|Description|| I have thought it over, and I think it is time to come home. I have the calling card, and I am going to start getting things in order to leave as soon as you can make the arrangements!|
|YouTube Tags||tachyon serious decision please help calling card elders mom dad parents petrol order souvenir courier soon home bree|
|Executive Producer(s)|| Glenn Rubenstein|
|Assistant Producer|| Mari Devincenzi|
|Director(s)|| Glenn Rubenstein|
|Camera|| Glenn Rubenstein|
|Vidplay|| Glenn Rubenstein|
|Story|| Glenn Rubenstein|
|Editor(s)|| Glenn Rubenstein|
|Music||"The Best Deceptions" by Dashboard Confessional|
|Previous||"my lonesome update for mid October"|
|Next|| "The Action of an Enemy - Be Careful"|
|Next by Tachyon|| "They Are Still Everywhere"|
|Directly after|| "Proving Longitude Wrong"|
|Directly before||"Thanks Gemma..."|
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i think it might be time that I thought things over.
i might have too much order in my life, to the point
I can’t make sense of it!
I feel like i am just waiting.
Waiting around for all of the things I want to happen.
Things i need to happen.
Waiting for something…
I wait, i wait, I wait.
It’s like I am waiting for you to just tell me what i should be doing.
Waiting for Mom and Dad to make sense of the order for me,
To help me see the meaning in it all.
Even though I feel invisible lately.
[in every facet of my life, actually]
I have nightmares that none of you even care anymore.
And i can’t help but let it get to me.
Am I cut off?
i’ve just been sitting still.
[it feels weird]
in light of that…
I am going to figure out what conclusions I have come to.
i don’t have access to all the answers. It feels like I’ve only had access
to a lot of questions.
I am too confused to try to figure it out on my own.
Maybe once we sit down, look at it all, and talk about it…
Maybe then we will be able to make sense of it!
I think that sounds like a good idea, don’t you?
So can I please come home now?
I know you’ve all been busy.
I haven’t heard from you in ages.
And I haven’t been able to get ahold of any of you either.
So I am going to use the calling card you gave me for
situations like this.
And I hope that you can make the arrangements for me.
I wouldn’t ask if i had any other way to get home!
I am counting on your help here.
i’ve just been dealing with so much that I can’t handle it all anymore.
I really fear that I have been losing my mind for a while now.
None of us want that. Right?
In my heart,
I know that I am making the right choice in regards to my difficult decision.
With that in mind:
I anticipate that i will only be here another day, maybe?
i will have a few goodbyes, which are important since i should try to leave
on a pleasant note.
i can handle that, I am sure.
Before the sun rises today, I will gather all that i can.
There’s a lot to pack. i will leave with more than I came
I might have a few souvenirs to grab as well.
i cannot carry much, so I’d prefer to courier the bulk of it.
Once you receive this message, can you immediately send
a courier over to retrieve it all?
Once the plan is in motion, I’ll use the calling card.
I just need to overcome a few restrictions I’m dealing with.
But they shouldn’t be a problem.
Hopefully I will see you soon!