...there's just no other way to say it...

My hands are shaking as I'm writing this. Why is this happening to me?

Today, I got pulled aside from work. Usually this happens when someone is either about to get fired, or promoted.
...I wasn't up for promotion.

I got to work today, and figured I had forgotten my ID card at my apartment, but I got someone else to open the office door for me, and I used a temporary login ID at my workstation. I've done it a million times before...I have a habit of losing things easily, see...so it's no big deal for me to just ask for a temporary user account until I can find the card I need to swipe the next day.

But I found out this afternoon that I hadn't simply forgotten it.

Somehow, some way...I think it's been stolen.

Apparently it was logged in the SHENtek system that I tried to access an office computer after hours last night.

And I DEFINITELY don't remember doing that.

I keep telling myself that MAYBE I just had a network connection still open on my laptop at home, and when I checked my email last night, it activated.

But I'm fairly certain I didn't.

See, here's the thing: the SHENtek higher ups...they're total sticklers for security. Even the slightest network malfunction and they completely get up in arms about everything...which was one of the HUGE reasons I had such a huge mess on my hands during the fire alarm earlier this week. They don't even allow their own EMPLOYEES to access the network when they aren't supposed to.

Seriously: they don't allow ANY kind of slacking. They've blocked everything. Facebook, MySpace, Youtube...they even have GOOGLE blocked on our workstations. They only allow you to do what you're SUPPOSED to do, and nothing more or less.

So...if it turns out that weird stuff starts happening on my account, I'm utterly finished. And I'll probably get sued for negligence.

The worst part: I can't get a password reset until Monday, since the security office closes early on Fridays.

Looks like I'll be holding my breath for two days. 
...I hope next week will bring good news.